A new year, and A new begining!

So I have thought that it is a new year, and as everyone does in the month of January every year, they set goals, they opt for a new begining, they say they will stick to them and do very well for the first... day.... week... month.. then it just falls apart for most... and this is where I begin!...

I want a change, I want a new start, after 3 years, 2 pregnancy's a huge move out of a city I knew nothing But, to a place where I know nothing, no one, and have to start new.. I need this. I am trying to make some changes, to eat better, sleep more( when I can of course!!), have a new outlook on life, treat people better, and try to be a better me in general. I know I am a person who likes change, I am used to it from growing up, and it is just a personality trait as well. But this change I feel I need to start slow, I need to get things in order, I am going to start weight watchers, I am hoping to sign up for a Baby boot camp every tuesday morning(depends on spots avail.). and with this it will give me a push, it will help me stay focused, stay in tact, and hopefully give me the motivation I need to get me to my goals.

I dont always like what I see in the mirror, I dont always like to think of what Ashley used to be, BUT on that note, I am a new me, I am a Mom, I am a hard working housewife!, I am a whole new person, and will NEVER be the old person I remember, that person is gone, and the new one is here, so with this new begining of being in Lloyd, and a new year, and may hopes and dreams in tact, I will strive to be a new Me. I will strive to succeed, and prove to everyone, **myself included** that I CAN do what I put my mind too.

March 5, will be my one year for no smoking! I did actually have ONE slip up, on Christmas.. but.. with that being said, the temptation is near, I am in close contact with many smokers, but, with only one slip, I have accomplished a healtier life by deciding to make a change, almost one year ago.

I do wonder when walking down the mall, or grocery stores, if people see me the way I see them. How do people perceve me? what do they see when they see me?. I always wonder, and I am sure other people wonder as well.. Wonder is the key word, I never said I CARE, I just wonder!

For the past 4 years Jaret and I have lived together, we have both gained weight, let things slip, and put things on the back burner. We are together on the changes we both make in our lives, as it effects both lives. For the past Month, we have done really well at picking out meals on saturday night, so when we go on Sunday for grocery's we have a list, and stick to it, so we dont compulsively buy junk, or things we dont need in the house. With doing this we have ventured.. well I must say I have ventured outside my box, I am making new recipes. I am trying new foods, I am giving things a chance, that I would of curled my nose up to and said I would NEVER eat that!. Since we have done this, I have made many new recipe's enjoyed some, and disliked some, but truly enjoy the cooking, and the organization we have now. We know what Monday -Fridays dinners are, they are sstarted at 4, and ready for 5 when Jaret comes home, no more..
"what do you want..." ..." I dunno what do YOU want!?" I cook it even if we dont feel like that meal will be what we really want... it is already made and no turning back! gotta be strict if we want to accomplish anything this year!!!. With planning our meals and getting in that routine, has helped get us ready to start this new journey. and thats truely what this will be a Journey, I will have good days and I will have bad days... but In the end it will make a world of a difference, and will add to the many things that moving to Lloydminster has made us do!..